Say Goodbye, Crew

Well the good times have to end EVENTUALLY, my friends. I can't believe the summer is over. Like really, woah what just happened? Woah that was just summer. I remember grad night, May 30th, my friends were all leaking out of the gym and one girl from my homeroom ran by and said "WHAT WAS THAT?...YEAH THAT WAS GRAD" And we all just nodded and were like, "we looked forward to this for three years...it's over" Its a weird feeling. So fast, like I have been blindfolded the last few months. I remember the first day of summer, I went down to Laurier with a group of girls to celebrate Jewls' birthday. There were a ton of us, and I remember walking down the huge hill down into the river valley and the sun was blazing, and I was with a few girls all who were talking about highschool but none of us really thought it was a big deal, afterall we had the whole summer, and it was still two months away.

I remember Jacob Dykstras party. He has this huge house down by Caroline's with a stone house and balcony with an Oak door. And I remember liking Chris and smiling at him from across Jake's yard, and by the end of the evening I had a boyfriend and alot of people asking me about it and I felt like the happiest person on the planet. Despite the fact that Jacob never really invited me.

Or when Chris left for Gull Lake for a week. And he would text me whenever he could, his phone was being a little bitch the entire time mind you. And I remember driving out to the lake with his mom and little brother Aidan and finally seeing him after a week I felt like melting. I remember leaving for Seba beach and talking to Carolines older sister Lauren about how we still had a month of summer left and sitting on the beach watching the insanely loud fireworks and recording them with our phones.

I think the craziest was this last week. It's like we've all realized whats happening, until just a few days ago I still thought highschool seemed so distant. Its like ive crammed my fun into this last week. My friend Celeste says "I think this summer really prepared me for highschool" and looking back at how many days I wasted doing absoulutely nothing, but then I start thinking about if I wasn't at home everything I was doing and how much fun I had. It's surreal and I don't even think it will hit me tomorrow morning at 8:00 when I wake up, grabbing my book bag for the first time in awhile.

Tonight I went to Daniels with Chris and Rebecca. We sat and watched Charlie Bartlett, and we all laughed and whatever. Maybe I'm just sentimental like that, but I looked around and felt so happy to be with these people and I realized were just spreading out across the city. It doesn't seem fair to be building these relationships so much for this happen. And then I start thinking about next summer and how interesting and unexpected it might be.

When I left Daniels and sat at the bus stop with Chris, we started talking about how we were going to see each other, how on wednesday were going to eat dinner together, how were calling each other tomorrow, and then talking to Morgan about when Im going to see her. It feels like such a hassle, like this isn't right. But, It should be interesting friends, bloggers and enemies. I'm so excited, don't get me wrong. I like being in new places, and that day where finally "Hey, I know this hallway!" And things start to click. But once you get used to your surroundings and yourself, you have to remember the other people too.

I will NEVER forget Westminster, and I will never forget the dances and the people and the people I know unfortunately I might never see again. But on that same note, it's not going to be as sad as it sounds, because like I told Morgan. These people will fade away, you'll talk to them on the computer, alot of "Hey we need to hang out!"'s will be exchanged, then it will be an occasional text message. And then one day someone will delete them off your phone and you won't notice. Life happens that way, there arn't alot of sudden changes, they're just transitions that we all get used to.

Of course, one thing I will never accept is not being friends with Morgan, Keltyn, Daniel, Chris, or a lot of people. And this summer has changed me, I have learnt alot about people that I can openly say has shocked the fuck out of me. But I love the people from Westmin, and I can love the people from Shep.

Hey, I have a big heart. There's Room.