Waiting for better days.

Ive been outside with Zaina for the past little bit and my fingers are kind of swollen from the cold. I feel like I need to hold a funeral for the loss of summer. It's gone. Like, it gets dark around 7:30, its really cold and It just feels miserable outside. Or maybe its just me.

Anyways I started feeling really good today. I decided in the morning that I would let go all my crazy thoughts. That I wouldn't be so sensitive. But it all came back and bit me in the butt. Stephanie goes to school with Chris and she stopped by and said Do you know who Sarah Pringle is? Chris is ALWAYS with her. Course she doesn't know. But I'm so tired I can't even tell you. I just want it to be done with. I'm messing myself up. I'm messing everything else up. I need to get a hold on things. I have homework, but I really don't want to do it but I'm going to get to it anyways.

I found a good way to help me memorize scientific facts. I just have been drawing super heros. There is Roboman, whose actually robosome man, and he shoots out protien to defeat his foe. (You know like Robosomes in a cell produces proteins) and then there is Lym-ey and he explodes chemically destroying all the fighters around him. (Lysomes produce chemical reactions to break down materials) Im still working on the rest, but Im pretty proud of myself so far. It really helps me remember. I just need to keep doing it.

I miss Westminster so much. I remember getting there and thinking how stressful it was and the drama. But now theres more drama, and the bad news is that this time its all in my head.

NOTE: Anyone thats reading this, next time I see you give me a big hug please and thanks!