Kristen is a little nutty!

So as I am saying to Emma, I actually believe that I am completely nuts. I scare myself because I am so strange. I mean, I have been having really good days at school because I finally broke through my sad bubble, and penetrated those massive walls and I have made alot of new friends which I didn't expect in such a short amount of time.

I am a little on edge and insane only because I am always freaking out about how long the happiness will last. I mean, Im not the only one with issues. I am estatic lately because I adore Lisa's company and I think she is so funny and cute and we have very nice conversations. I barely see Rebecca and Caroline which makes me a little sad but because its so ...unoften, the times I DO see them are without fights.

Elly and I are getting along really well, were getting pre tight. Drama is so much fun for me, I look forward to it everyday. I have almost let Chris go. I hurt sometimes because what I want sometimes is what we had but I am so incredibly happy that were friends. Sometimes I wonder if Im just imagining that were super close just because I want us to be. But I guess for the time being its good for me to just be blissful. He still makes me moderately angry as well...just because I wish for once I could be the one looking down on him and not the stupid ex girlfriend who can't seem to move on.

What can you do though. I'm kind of sick at the moment it's not very much fun. My throat is sore and my lips are so chapped and dry and I feel like my head is exploding.

Oh, bad thing about today is that my old father and his girlfriend might be breaking up. If they do, I swear I will track her down. I am tired of people hurting I was sick and tired enough of myself being so miserable for two months and I told Chris I hate seeing my parents vulnerable because thats what they are supposed to be protecting us from. I feel like there is nothing I can do and to be honest I feel like it's my fault they are breaking up, if they do happen to. He's really sad and I hate seeing him sad. I hate when he always has plans and leaves me home to rot, but I hate when he's at home rotting even more.

It really sucks man. Also, a month until Christmas tomorrow I believe! Or maybe today. Im really sore right now and my phone is chillen on my belly and I'm thinking of the week ahead since its only monday and my head just got alot more sore. Dam short weekends I hate you.

XoKristen