Kill me.

My ridiculous fail of a weekend is finally over. I am actually so exhausted. My grandma came over for dinner tonight after I came home from cheer. She has a boyfriend, or whom I believe is her boyfriend named Lee. His name is actually like Vankrin Ronaldo Leehuang the third. Hes this hilarious Jamacan guy, and everytime I see him and my grandma together I kill myself.

Shes one of those large hearty women, who wore a bright pink shirt to dinner. She told me a story about a male belly dancer and topped it off with "his ass was the size of my ankle". She says things like "Don't ever wear a new nightie when your sleeping somewhere new. Thats the last thing you need. A fucking strange nightie on"

She cracks me up. They crack me up together. When she laughs she looks like she's having a heart attack, and you just can;t understand a word Lee is saying. But that was probably the most interesting part of my weekend. Cheer was exhausting and one girl got kicked off the team, and because of it her best friend quit.

I am kind of pissed off. I mean, I am really sick and tired of living. That sounds so emo I realize, I just feel like nothing is ever going to change. Chris just, fuck, hasn't been saying much to me at all, its probably in my imagination but I feel like I must've done something wrong because he ignores my text messages and what not. I don't want to bug him by asking him. Mostly because its probably nothing. I'm just really tired of trying. I had an argument with him last night, well sort of, that I was trying to hard or something.

My life is just ridiculous. There is no way around it. I'm trying to get my dad to take me in to get my belly button pierced tomorrow. I don't know when I work next, but probably sometime next week. I have to figure out a bus schedule. So im not in the biggest writing mood right now. You might be able to tell, because my word choice isn;t the most interesting.

So I guess I'll go, I want to go on a rant. But I have nothing else to say. I just want to say fuck the world, fuck me, fuck Christmas break coming up. Just fuck everything. Really.

XoKristen