Life is alot more normal these days

Hey everyone! I don't write blogs everyday anymore. It's on account of my lack of complaining (fortunately!) that I have, and that my internet rarely works when I'm at my dads house. It's saturday today. I'm enjoying sitting here in front of the television while I can. I got my hair did! It's blonder, better, I really like it. I have my first cheer competition next weekend. I'm incredibly nervous and stressed out to tell you the truth.

And that's not even the only thing thats causing me to be stressed. One of the main reasons is that up until the end of March, I will have cheer every weekend. I have a desire to go on this ski trip at my school. But I don't think I can because it takes place on the weekend which ridiculously pisses me off.

Then there is the fact that I have piercings, and I will need to figure out some kind of plan to remove my nose ring and stomach ring without stress. My stomach ring, I think I can hide. The first few competitions we only compete in our practice uniforms, which my stomach doesn't show. If I have the same luck with my actual uniform, then I won't have to worry about removing that stupid piece of metal in my stomach. As for my nose, I have a tragic history with taking it out. All of that alone causes me stress because I have a fear of my piercings all growing in.

So YEAH! I had school briefly just yesterday to check out all my new classes and what not. I am really sad about drama ending though, happy that guitar has started because so far I am incredibly excited to finally maybe being able to play my fender.

One last thing before I head out, I am incredibly happy I spoke with Chris' girlfriend. I feel like she's a real person now and I really like her and respect her. Despite everything I think she has had me in mind as much as one can and I feel alot better about meeting her. I think it's helped me get some closure and it's helped me begin to move on. I think about the two of them together and I smile. Imagine that, I smile! Because I want her to be happy even more than him, and the prospect of them being happy doesn't sound as mocking as it used to. So, it was a good idea and i thank Elly even though I wanted to kill her for a split second at Empire.

XoKristen