Happy Birthday Elly? :(

Happy day off! Thursday and friday of this week are happily teachers convention! I am very excited about the next three days, because I am leaving for Calgary to see my cousins tomorrow! I am in a good mood right now because I haven't done a thing all day except for sit here. I'm a bit sad because it's Elly's Sweet Sixteen Birthday today and she is having a dinner thing with her friends and I couldn't go. She doesn't believe that I couldn't go, she believes I'm not going because I mentioned something about Chris' ex whatever she is was going. It sucks, because it was a poor thing to say on my part. Elly asked me why I wasn't going and the legit reason was because I have cheer tonight, I already missed last Thursday and I need to miss this Sunday's because I;ll be in Calgary and I just wanted her to be aware that I was nervous about hanging out with Sarah and everything and she just believes that I blew her off on her birthday because I have no guts and I can't move on from Chris and yeah. So I sent her a text saying Happy Birthday and she ignored it. It's awesome. Like I don't even do this, I don't get into fights like this with my friends. I haven't done this since like grade 6 where somebody is childish enough to ignore me because I can't make a birthday party! It just makes me irritated.

And sad. So I do have cheer tonight, the entire time I'll be thinking of Elly probably telling people and Sarah that I'm not going because of her. Which again, isn't true. Everyone knows it, I like Sarah I think she's insanely nice especially to me after every stupid thing I've done. Elly doesn't believe that I'm happy now, that I'm not depressed. Like at the moment I am a happy person because I feel like I have moved on which she doesn't see and it's just so stupid how hard I'm trying and someone that is supposed to be one of my bestfriends just gave me a lecture about moving on. Don't quite like that.

I am even more excited about Calgary for a couple reasons because 1: I bought skates at my work FINALLY and went skating to the Silver Skate Festival with my mother on Saturday and I had alot of fun. And when I was young and we would visit my cousins in Calgary there was this creek and we would always go skating there and I REALLY want to go there. And 2: I went shopping last night and spent a ridiculous amount of money on four items and I am so excited to actually wear them. They have been hanging up sacredly in my closet all day today and every so often I peek in there just to look.

I bought a pair of 250 dollar jeans, the True Religion Brand. And, just so you know those jeans are usually like 400 dollars. The jeans that I really wanted were darker jeans with white stitching that I was in love with but were... 400 dollars lol. And thats just a bit too much over my budget. Although I did spend 250 dollars on jeans anyways. My mom actually bought me this amazing pink sweater from Aritizia and I bought a pink cute shirt from Urban and this really nice bag from urban outfitters.

Basically I am just incredibly shallow and self obsessed with my appearance but I don't care! I am so excited to wear my jeans. I am also SO happy to leave Edmonton, I don't care that Calgary is only three hours away. Its good enough. Lisa and Rebecca got to escape to Cancun, Chris is actually in the Domincan right now, and Keltyn may perhaps still be in DisneyLand. I just want to get out of this stupid godforsaken city so badly. I haven't left since last Summer when I went to miquelon lake. I know, that's a wonderful thought.

So basically, I just have a few days to look forward to and yeah.

I really wish Alyssa would write a blog lol. I don't talk to her that much it seems! :(