What coffee does to the brain

I am somewhat of a crazy person today. I feel so incredibly sleep deprived that I am so over tired that everything is funny and everything is an exciting adventure. It's like I'm high, no kidding. I had to work tonight because Matt Sawler wanted me to take his shift. Because I'm so nice, I accepted the invitation, which actually was a shift in disguse because it was stupid tonight!

Not only did I get to work and do several dumb things in a row including climbing into the car with my backpack on my back and forgetting it was there, tried to figure out why I couldn't clock in at work and realized that the computer was not in CAPS LOCK!, Almost fell off a ladder and tripped and fell in the tech shop and nearly cut my face open on a skate. (that's a bit dramatic, but it's cool)

The second I got a break I got this huge Mocha Frapaccino with so much coffee in it which was a terrible idea because I hadn't really eaten anything for the past couple of days, I hadn't really slept. I feel like a complete mess. Now that the coffee is wearing me down, I feel like there are bags under my eyes a mile deep. No kidding, work was terrible today. This guy Collin was the keyholder. In case anyone is wondering a Key holder is somebody that is like the manager on shift at the moment. The person who counts the till and puts it into the computer and gives everybody jobs and what not. He just recently was allowed to close on his own, and ironically at this same time he lost the store keys in the West Ed parking lot and might owe the store 200 dollars. Not only that, but he just turned 17 so he is barely over a year older than myself. He is this very stern faced boy who is in like grade 12 calculus and he doesn't have alot of a sense of humour and its very hard to tell if he's angry or kidding. Anyways today i thought we were all kidding around and I told him to chill as a joke and he yelled at me to SHUT UP and it was quite scary to be honest. I spent the rest of the night sweeping everything and I felt really bad because I don't very much want to be known as the employee who doesn't do anything. Because I do try hard, it just depends on the day. And today there was a guy from another SportMart helping with Inventory prep and he was talking to me the entire time and Kelly was working which meant she distracted me. The probes (They are the cameras, Laney named them probes) are always watching and I forget these things when I am chasing Kelly around the store with a jock strap in my hand.

Not a smart choice on my part. But I was a little off the deep end today as well. The guy that came from a different sportmart to help held my interest the entire shift. It's comical because he wasn't like a stud either, he was kind of this short guy who knew his stuff about bikes and snowboarding and had silver teeth and was around my age and Kelly insisted that he had a crush on me but I was just having fun doing some flirting like a blind person. He was charming, or at least I thought he was because I was so bloody tired. He left without saying bye though and I was a little sad. He sharpened my skates and everything. And then when my mom picked me up and took me home, this one block behind Stony Plain Road for like 8 blocks was completely black. Like the street lights were out and the red, green, and orange stop and go lights were out and all the houses. I was on my coffee high at that time and insisted to my mom that we drove down Stony Plain to try and find the comotion and then later to follow these cop cars down into a neighborhood along the river valley. We found the police parked with a fire truck with this woman and her dog and a mysterious backpack. The entire drive home I was coming up with creative items that might be in the bag. Like crack, or body parts. My mom didn't like the second one. She said it was probably money, but I told her it was bound to be a body that washed up from the river. She didn't like that either, how odd.

And now, I am on a coffee crash. And my head is sort of irritating me and my bed is calling to me. It says "Come sleep on me kristen. Soft, Comfy. Meeeee, Sleeeeeep" I am pretty sure that I just lost my internet connection. STUPID wireless. I actually hate life. I mean, at least all of my three readers can sleep easy now knowing that instead of me being insanely angry and sad at the world I am actually just losing my little mind.

As for my bus ride today with good Ol' Chris, it was insanely awkward. I think he used to be a superhero once, like one with superpowers to make a situation incredibly one way and uncomfortable. He really is the most awkward guy I have ever met. I was telling him about how I fell today in the parking lot at school (A WHOLE NOTHER EMBARASSING, NO DIGNITY LEFT KIND OF STORY) And he said "That's super cool" he said that. He actually said super cool. I just laughed uncomfortably. I see him and I feel very sad inside at times. He is a very good and lost soul of a person and he just looks so tortured now. Tired and worn out, kind of like I feel. (And probably look too) I have this massive flaw about myself that I think the way I do things is going to make everyone happy. So, I learned that no one is really glorified by my wisdom and nobody really thinks of it as wisdom anyways. And that I just want to be congradulated and admired, more than I really care about fixing a situation.

I suck :D . Good news is I have learned things. Bad news is, I have no idea how to apply them to my life as of now. I have a cheer competition tomorrow and I am in fear of my life and the rest of my dignity after my fall today which sucked. My entire school basically was leaving Westmount which is the mall across the street from my school, probably like 500 kids. This car backs out and I start running to move out of the way like a little tool, and before I know it I am on the ground covered in slush and everyone behind me just goes "Ohhh" and I laughed really hard at the time because I knew Rebecca wanted to laugh at me because she's great like that. And I didn't want anyone else to think I was dumb. But once I got to guitar and everyone that was there which was a good quarter of my school had finished laughing at me I started crying because it was incredibly embarassing and I was so muddy and wet that my boots are permanantly stained and I spent 15 minutes brushing them and it still didn't work.

I was pretty sad. So, cheer competition tomorrow! Afterwards miss Elly pearson wants me to go and have dinner with her and Aaron somebody. I have a secret idea that she is in love with him and too scared to go on a date with him because she has dragged me along with her before when hanging out with him. LOL just kidding. But I do question why she always brings me. He knows who I am but we don't really talk. We're not even aquantinces. I just see him and think he's really goodlooking. (Haha don't tell anyone that) So everytime we go to hang out with him I admit I get a bit excited because he is a tad goodlooking.

Bad thing though is our cheer hair-dos and makeup applications are actually ridiculous. I will most likely need to clean my face with a sand blaster before I go anywhere with her and him. And as of right now, oddly I'm hungry. And tired.

LOL, imagine that. Me. Tired? Psht!

Lol goodnight I actually need to sleep for once in my life.

XoKristen