I wonder if the sky is bluer on the other side?

Today is Monday! Any other monday and I would be grovelling on the floor, probably in bed at this hour and worrying about something for Tuesday. But tonight my friends, Is an evening during Spring break and it could not be sweeter. Well, that's a lie. It definitely could be alot sweeter. But, It's sweet enough. I get to...well I don't really get to sleep in tomorrow because I have a retarded Doctors appointment. But, Alls well because I have no plans for the rest of the week and I'll probably just spend my sweet time sleeping and day dreaming. So that's pretty great.

Today I hung out with Chris2. LOL I don't know if you can see that, but it says Chris Squared. I actually had so much fun with the two of them, and it was strange. I told my father and he laughed and said it was like I was going backwards again. I just can't get enough of those two, and seeing him, however stupid the non asian Chris was being yesterday, I just kind of sweltered with love for them. It was bad on my part, I was just so blissful being in their company that I couldn't stop hugging them and everything, probably freaked them out. But I'm a girl, and I am allowed to do these things.

It's just nice sometimes to feel like everything is back to normal. (Even though it's not) I just really miss them. It was a big deal too me, not to the white Chris but I don't really care. Because for once, I didn't feel like shouting my hatred in all directions and with all octaves of my voice. I just felt like hugging them and embracing the fact that they were actually with me, together. For perhaps the first time in four months. For once though, I'm trying not to anaylze this. Because planning a future, does nothing. Because no one, can determine what will happen. And I am tired of setting road maps to myself and when they errupt in flames, it really sets me off.

I just love my friends, Chris doesn't care if I'm gone but I care if he's gone and I care for seeing the Asian Chris more than I have and I just care about them so much I would really jump in front of a bus for either of them. As creepy as I realize this sounds, I would do this for most of my friends, and I usually feel this way about Lisa, Caroline or Rebecca. But these feelings have just been renewed and it's nice to have this breath of fresh air.

So, on my moving update. My father apparently had a mix up with the bank this afternoon and it cost him 3000 dollars. It's all very confusing to me, how would a large company like that allow themselves to make a mistake that would cost one of their customers 3000 dollars and not compensate for it? He announced this to me in front of Chris squared, and I told him very briskly that he doesn't have 3000 dollars. On top of that he is pretty certain we won't get that house in Grovenor. It's kind of disappointing. I want to get out of here sometimes more than he does.

I have no plans in stone tomorrow, and I have work on Wednesday. I don't want to go but I am reminding myself of the cash that I will get if I beat budget this week for my commission. I am very anxious to hang out with friends after today because I feel very confident. I'm very strange, I realize this. But it's nice. It is definitely nice.

Currently, I am a thousand degrees warm. I am thinking about going to bed but I just gave my blog page a complete facelift. I don't know why. Alyssa doesn't blog anymore, and my only audience is a few stragglers. I used to have quite the audience from Chris' schoolmates. I don't think they read it anymore. I'm pretty certain that I'm old news.

So, goodnight. Doctors appointment tomorrow at the Mall down the street. I am terrified, last time I had an 'appointment' they had to take blood from me. I don't want them to take my blood. My blood is MY blood. It belongs in my arm, in my legs, in my brain, in my heart. The prospect of sticking a pointy thing and damaging my poor vein makes me shudder. I could never be a vampire.

*Shudder*

XoKristen