Down To the wire

DOWN TO THE WIRE!! It is definitely Sunday night (Loud groan), and I have school first thing tomorrow morning. I'm not really look forward to it, but I'm not really dreading it. My father said that it would be difficult over the phone to me today. I don't think it will. I've been waking up so early all of spring break. I went to bed last night at 2, and first awoke around 8:30. My body's clock refuses to work with me. I haven't really had a good sleep in like I wanted.

So anyways, good thing is that tomorrow is day A. Which means I don't need to deal with Spanish, I don't need to deal with Math. But I want to force myself to do math at least an hour every night until my test. I am terrified about my unit exam. I don't feel like I can do it, and I am not trusting myself in the slightest to do well. And I can't afford to fail another test. Nor can I afford getting a 55%. I want a 70. Or an 80.

So I was going to talk about how I have decided that the only bad guy in my life is myself because I create situations in my head and I just have been thinking about how I go on about Chris and my feelings and my worries and stuff. I just, i'm like the most typical girl you will ever meet. I am the stereotypical insane woman. I am controlling, I am crazy, I am paranoid. I don't think of myself that way, but I know NOW that I am. So I wanted to go in depths about it and kind of scold myself... but mentioning math is stressing me out. I HAVE to look at my review booklet at least a little bit before I go to bed right now.

Fucck. I need to do good.

XoKristen