My thumb is broken

Tonight was the first cheer practice that I attended, that was dubbed the Legends Senior Summer Team. I was so excited to see the girls from the Winter team, I was excited to backspot some more and really show these new girls who were apparently not intimidating, I was excited to do some jumps because i'd improved so much since last September.

But NO! NO NO NO NO NO! I get there, the girls seem all very young and so I assumed I would get to finally seem for once like I knew what I was doing. I thought maybe the coaches would teach me how to base. Which they didn't. Instead, I backspotted ridiculously basic stunts for an hour. Nearly broke my thumb because my group was a bunch of boys who had a lot of strength but no technique. I got really tired of this one girl who giggled when the coach told me I could just backspot the whole time. Then, we got to work out. That was the only thing that changed my mind from quitting.

I don't know why I enjoy working out so much, but I really did. It hurt incredibly because I pulled my quad muscle yesterday, but I still felt very successful when I left in a hot sweaty mess.

So, I hate the girls, I hate my group. And the worst part is, the preps for the jumps (Which is like the funky arm motions you do to get height in your jumps)  was completely different! And Anne, the vice coach or whoever she is from last year, the woman who used to  tell my group how awesome I was at backspotting, kept critizing my jumps. I understand that it was constructive and she wasn't being rude in the slightest, but I was so frusterated with myself because I didn't really know anyone around me and I couldn't bring my legs up near my face, I couldn't do much. And Anne kept looking at me, and even told me I needed to work on my 'abs'. All I need to work on is my flexibility. It's sad how NOT flexible I am. When I was young I was like an elastic band, and I wish I had kept up stretching because it would be have been a piece of cake to do a toe touch. But now, I'm just such a big galoof I can't do anything.

Ugh. Well, I'm going out for breakfast tomorrow at 8:00, and so I'm going to need all the sleep I can get. I'm looking forward to it, but at the same time I think it's going to be really hard getting up an hour earlier than I usually do.

XoKristen