Good friends, Good times.

Im so glad I could get away to Beckys house tonight. Im sitting in her den listening to Jack Johnson. Jack Johnson=Soundtrack of my life. Or what my life soundtrack should be. All about celebrating life and happiness. I say, Fuck it. Why am I wasting all this time on worrying and sadness? Of course drinking smirnoff with becks caused me to nearly puke, I still love being with her and talking to her. Because I dont need stress.

I just did the best thing. I took an orange highlighter and wrote an angry letter to an anonymous someone, everything I feel and think that I wish they could just KNOW. I am tired of this worrying, thinking that this specific person is going to get changed by highschool. Fuck, it finally works out, I severely care about you and think about you. And now I feel so uncomfortable with my feelings. Like Im wrong for feeling this.

God help me if this continues to happen. Im wrecking everything!

I dont expect this to make sense to readers. But, Its in my head anyways.

Peace!

Johnny Cash

I'm just listening to some Johnny Cash. The song is called "Hurt"
My dad claims that it makes him nearly want to cry. He spent like three hours telling me to download it, begging me, and playing air guitar in his underwear.

Finally I opened limewire, he COULD do it, except that he deleted limewire off our desktop. But I have to say it was worth it. It's very old style, I believe he wrote it later on because he really does sound like an old man. But it's really beautiful and sad, it's about Johnny's Heroin addicting and how its really breaking him apart.

"Everyone I know goes away in the end. And you could have it all, my empire of dirt, I will let you down. I will make you hurt"

You know at that point where your actions are really rubbing off on others? Yeah too many thoughts to even list right now. It's something I HIGHLY reccomend.

Why Blog Spot?

Im not sure if you've ever had one of those days where someone special in your life is pulling at your heartstrings. Or your parent seems to be more stressed out than usual. The thing I have always turned to is writing, singing, whatever I can to get it out. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a published writer, I don't make Cd's of my songs. But I do want to know that wherever I am I have a voice.

And on top if it, I always wanted an audience. Someone to say "Yeah! I hear you"

Now, I'm heading off to Highschool. New friends, New Classes, Teachers, Building, and Overall experiances. I am never going to forget this summer or the past three years at my Junior High school. And I don't ever want to forget my amazing friends either. I find interest in my life, and belonging with other teenagers going through the same thing. Hey, Maybe you will to.

Let's just hope at least someone is reading this now nodding their head. Someone who feels like I may as well be them. (In a less creepy way) :P

Sincerely,
KMAYY