What an improvement!

I had such a good day today! That feels SO good to finally let myself say that. I just had one of those thoughtful, intense, really in touch with yourself days. The bus ride this morning was very slack. I missed the usual busses and took a random bus to school and got there just as the first bell rang and trudged along to language Arts. She mouthed to me across the room halfway through the class to go to the washroom, and I did and we spent probably ten minutes in the washroom talking and looking at ourselves in the mirrors. (It's very classic of us)

Then we exited and her new boyfriend Taylor was loitering around the entrance and I laughed and skipped back to the room. Spanish class went by very slowly, as it usually does. It was the only downside to my day. We had two different exams one was "Examen Auditiva" A listening exam, the other was a written. I'm sure I got at least 90%, since the material were learning I learnt back in '05.

Lunch time I hung out with Elly which is always refreshing to me. I don't know why, but I get so extremely happy when I hang out with new people. I feel like I;ve let myself go. We walked around Westmount, scouting out a boy that likes her and talking to Michelle, Rachel and Rachelle.

Drama class was the most fun. Ross Sheppard has this huge gym with bleachers that can be reached by going up on this hallway on the second floor. The hallway to the drama room is like in between the two gyms and its very long and narrow with no lockers. Today was the opening of Totem Hoop, Shep's Basketball Tournament with all the teams. (Girls Junior and Senior, and Guys junior and senior)

We heard the music blaring from the large gym and we slipped in behind one of the many entrances to the large gym. The music was so loud in the gymnasium you could hear it from the drama room. They were playing really fun rap songs, and I mean the best ones. I was getting all pumped up, watching the Boys Senior team getting warmed up for the game. There were streamers on the balconies and the bleachers had balloons stuck to them. Our Drama teacher Mrs. Forde let our class go and watch, and I love sitting in the higher balconies because your so high up and you just survey the entire school from your little chair.

The reason it was so fun for me, was because Elly knows ALOT of people. She denies it, but she does. People kept coming up to her and talking to her and introducing themselves to me. I met a guy named Bryce, at least i believe his name was Bryce. He talked to me about hockey equipment, math marks, and how cool the pikachu charm on my phone was. Then this really sweet girl named Keely sat next to me. I'd spoken to her a few times, she's in my math class and in september I walked with her to Dairy Queen with some other people from Westmin. She's extremely nice and interesting since she does proffesional skiing. (And you know me, I adore skiing)

Anyways I talked to her about a million things while watching the game, along with Speaking with Bryce and laughing with Elly about how attention was focused on looking for a certain boy in the bleachers. (Which as well is very difficult, my gym holds 2000 people. And there were probably 1000 people there)

There was a halftime 'show'. Well, it was this amazingly talented little asian guy doing some insane hiphop moves and I was in such a good mood by the time he finished his performance. There is just something strange about me and making new friends. I feel like I'm queen or something when new people talk to me. My little crush 'interest' (I'm going to say interest because I barely talk to him, it's just a possibility) was sitting across the gym in the far balconies and I could sort of see him. I don't know what it is, but lately he's been on my mind alot because I'm curious, and so has Edward Cullen/ Robert Pattinson. LOL.

So that entire period we cheered and watched basketball from these balconies and listened to rap and talked to the trillions of people in the balconies. When it was over Keely and I whined because we had math, but lucky for me I am understanding this material vaguely and it went by fast enough for me.

I went to Starbucks with Chris as well. It was really good, like, When I see him I don't have these bursts of emotions anymore. I really care about him, which is the only thing preventing me from moving on completely but I don't really think I want him to be with me anymore. Those feelings have been with me for so long it was kind of unbearable. But now with how much Im starting to enjoy shep and how today I actually noticed so many more guys than I usually do, it's like I can finally feel things changing.

I told Elly today that I was finally starting to enjoy shep. It seemed so boring to me for the first couple months but I've made a lot of new friends, not close ones, but have the potential to get that far. I had so much fun at Totem Hoop today mostly because I had friends with me that I'd only known for a small amount of time, its like the light in the clouds to my new life. My life that I think Chris doesn;t necessarily need to be in.

But Im going to keep him in it. The torture isn't as bad anymore when I see him. He's just a really good guy that I respect. We'll keep it like that, and for now I'm just going to go after the guy that I'm interested in. Just to keep my focus elsewhere, and to keep my mind off of Chris. Good thing, I know I won't get hurt by this guy either because we don't have a past, and unless it gets far I won't be bothered if it doesn't happen.

Walking home from Starbucks today I literally felt like a million bucks. I was warm, which was weird since it was snowing buckets and it was probably -20 outside. I was very thoughtful and I was just enjoying the gentle snow and the lack of wind and all the peoples Christmas Lights were on. I felt ultimately happy, I haven't felt like this in so long. I've been happy for a whole three days! I want this to be a record of 4, 5, maybe even 6 days!

I don't know how else to explain it, but my jealousy is wearing thin, and so is my desire for certain people. It's a really good feeling to feel that being over and done with.

Anyways, on a last note I'm very worried about my Sport Mart Job. She said she would call me back like two days ago, I have a feeling she won't call me. I left her a number for my Volunteer Coordinator whom was my 'boss' when I volunteered at Norwood in summer 07. She said she would call me once she got ahold of Andie (thats her name), but since it was over a year ago, something I forgot to mention I think, she might never get ahold of her. And I will end up looking like a liar, or that I implied I worked at Norwood the summer that just passed. I don't know what to do because I told a nice chunk of people I got the job since, technically I did. Oh well, what can you do except never go back into Sportmart ever again.

So, Im so excited for school tomorrow because the Totem Hoop opening Ceremonies are going on during Gym class, and then in Drama were going to Totem hoop games again, which means a repeat of today with Elly. It should be fun, I'm excited!

XoKristen